There’s this guy, and I love him. But that’s what they all say, but this is true I do love him and he loves me but he doesn’t want to be together. He said he doesn’t want commitment but I think it really has something to do with his health. You see he has this disease, it’s a kidney disease called nephrotic syndrome. He swells with water and his kidneys shut down, I think he left because he got some news and the doctors said that he has maybe 5 years left. I think he left because he just wants to live his life but I still love him and I don’t know what I’m suppose to do. I will get through this I know I will, it’s just really hard and I don’t want to let go.